In the light now

A few weeks before Christmas I started to notice that I was not as happy as I thought I should be. I have suffered from depression for year (lots o' years!), but I've been really well controlled on medication. I know that I am still grieving my mother-in-law's passing, but it just seemed like more. So, my father-in-law (a psychiatrist) wanted me to try a new medicine that is on the market and shown really good results. I agreed, because I've had times in the past where my meds just stopped working or I've become immune to them. Here's the problem....I thought I was supposed to go off my other meds completely and start the new one. Wrong! I was supposed to continue taking one of them, and add in the new med. So, for weeks I was on just the new med and it wasn't working. And, this was right before Christmas! I honestly thought that I'd never experience depression like that again. While I was able to continue w/ my life, I just didn't have any joy and I was a really mean mom and wife.

Finally, my father-in-law, concerned w/ my moods asked me exactly what I was taking and discovered my error. It took probably another two weeks to get my mood back to "normal", but I'm finally there...and it feels good!

On a more positive note, Patrick attended a baseball college showcase in St. Louis and we found out that even as a sophomore, he is being noticed by college scouts. He was asked to join an elite showcase team for 3 tournaments this fall. We couldn't be more proud...and he's a great kid!

My cat loves me

and I mean...LOVES me. Our cat Ozzie has always liked me a lot, but I figured that it was because I'm his source of food and he loves his food. He used to favor Patrick, to the point where he would run up to Patrick and whine/meow until Patrick paid attention to him. Personally, I think it's just because Patch usually wears a baseball cap and Oz likes to rub his face against the bill. But lately, Ozzie has been crazy in love w/ me. If I am lying in bed watching TV, Ozzie will curl up on my shoulder *right* next to my face and nuzzle. I sleep on my stomach and Ozzie sleeps in the crook of my neck snuggled right up against my head. Let me tell you, sometimes it's a little much...I mean like this cat has a thing for me! But don't take this post as a complaint, because I'll admit it: I love it!